freakin' on: ouch

holy crap! i am so sore today. the kind of sore where you can't lower yourself to the toilet seat without bracing yourself against the wall. i can't remember what exercise did it yesterday, but my freakin abs hurt way down deep. it is quite uncomfortable, but really great at the same time.

i had almost a week long flub in my diet and exercise routines. i just felt like i couldn't carry the ball this week. probably because the mental reprieve from, "what the fuck am i doing with my life?" was over now that gil's parents left and our mini vacation ended. then my trainer cancelled on tuesday, and i just couldn't seem to muster the will to get my ass to the gym without someone there holding me accountable. so yesterday, i finally went again.

anyway, today i was supposed to go to the bosu class my trainer teaches, but i am seriously exhausted. i was also really tired yesterday during my workout, and couldn't figure out why. i started worrying that maybe i was pregnant, but then i woke up with a sore throat and remembered that i spent a lot of time coughing last night. so... i think i'm just a little sick. this is a great excuse to sit around, drink tea and play warcraft. plus my trainer helped relieve some of my guilt about slacking off, saying that i burn way more calories doing nothing now than i did before and am looking way stronger. i FEEL about a million times stronger, too. i do wish the feeling would be more evident in my appearance, but i guess i need some patience with that. 10 lbs is a healthy weight loss for 2 months. YAY!

i am, however, REALLY fatigued today. i would write more, but it hurts to hold my arms at the keyboard and sit up straight. some good news is that i MAY be getting a part time gig at meghan's company, which i am THRILLED about. seriously... you have no idea how stoked i would be.

peace out.